Month: January 2008

  • The Book of Isaiah Chapter 1 V.1 Part 2.1

    The Book of Isaiah

    Chapter 1 V.1 Part 2.1

     

     

    Today, we’re looking at the first of the Kings mentioned here:

    Isa 1:1 

    THE vision of Isaiah the son of Amoz, which he saw concerning Judah and Jerusalem in the days of Uzziah, Jotham, Ahaz, and Hezekiah, kings of Judah.

     

    Uzziah: (2 Chr 26)

     

    A contracted form of Azari’ah the Lord is my strength. (1.) One of Amaziah’s sons, whom the people made king of Judah in his father’s stead (2Ki 14:21; 2Ch 26:1).

     

    For clarity’s sake, Amaziah was one of the wicked kings that ruled in that time, which is why the reference here mentions that the people made Uzziah king in his stead. It’s that they willingly elected to have him despite his father, who they killed (2 Chr. 25:25-28; 2 Ki. 14:17-20) for his idolatry and wickedness.

     

    His long reign of about fifty-two years was “the most prosperous excepting that of Jehosaphat since the time of Solomon.”

    Uzziah or Azariah, son of Amaziah, and 11th king of Judah, came to the throne at the age of 16. The length of his reign is given as 52 years. His accession may here be provisionally dated in 783 BC. His father Amaziah had met his death by popular violence (2Ki 14:19), but Uzziah seems to have been the free and glad choice of the people (2Ch 26:1).

     

    He was a vigorous and able ruler, and “his name spread abroad, even to the entering in of Egypt” (2Ch 26:8,14). In the earlier part of his reign, under the influence of Zechariah, he was faithful to Jehovah, and “did that which was right in the sight of the Lord” (2Ki 15:3; 2Ch 26:4,5); but toward the close of his long life “his heart was lifted up to his destruction,” and he wantonly invaded the priest’s office (2Ch 26:16), and entering the sanctuary proceeded to offer incense on the golden altar.

     

    While reading this story in 2 Chr. 26, I saw that it was pride and arrogance that brought about the fall of this king.

     

    2Ch 26:16   But when he was strong his heart was lifted up, to his destruction, for he transgressed against the LORD his God by entering the temple of the LORD to burn incense on the altar of incense.

     

    Word for transgressed in the NIV is “unfaithful” and took me to this:

     

    1Sa 13:9   So he demanded, “Bring me the burnt offering and the peace offerings!” And Saul sacrificed the burnt offering himself. 

    1Sa 13:10   Just as Saul was finishing with the burnt offering, Samuel arrived. Saul went out to meet and welcome him, 

    1Sa 13:11   but Samuel said, “What is this you have done?” Saul replied, “I saw my men scattering from me, and you didn’t arrive when you said you would, and the Philistines are at Micmash ready for battle. 

    1Sa 13:12   So I said, `The Philistines are ready to march against us, and I haven’t even asked for the Lord’s help!’ So I felt obliged to offer the burnt offering myself before you came.” 

    1Sa 13:13   “How foolish!” Samuel exclaimed. “You have disobeyed the command of the Lord your God. Had you obeyed, the Lord would have established your kingdom over Israel forever. 

    1Sa 13:14   But now your dynasty must end, for the Lord has sought out a man after his own heart. The Lord has already chosen him to be king over his people, for you have not obeyed the Lord’s command.” 

  • Depression, Discontent and Veiled Eyes

    Hi all,

    This week started out as you see in my title. I was not focused. I couldn’t see what I should be doing…where I was going…I just generally had no focus. I didn’t get in enough personal time with God…I didn’t get my devotional done every day, and I wasn’t able to do my study and I was hardly praying. I was distracted, but the distraction came in the form of hopeless thoughts.

    I honestly don’t know how or why I got into that mode. It just felt like I woke up Monday and there was the fog, and I just couldn’t see anything clearly. I can’t stand being in that place because it frustrates me, thus the discontent and the worse part is…I didn’t try to pray through it. It’s not that I was trying to look ahead…it was that I couldn’t see my purpose for that day, despite trying to focus on it, and this lack of focus spun into the next day and so on, until it got to a place of anger, offense and unforgiveness this week.

    But, God is faithful. While I was busy wallowing in my discontent and depression, the enemy attacked me twice with people who attacked my person, and what they presumed my race is, because I’m one of those mixes that people can’t figure out. They assume one thing, but there are “7″ things in my bloodline, so they are always wrong on any one general assumption. Actually, they attacked me because the enemy sent the attack. “Knock ‘em while their down,” is his motto, and in this case, it worked, where I’d normally blow it off and dismiss it.

    The actual manner of the offense does not need to be mentioned, nor the offenders, as they are forgiven, but I ashamed that I reacted in that manner and chose in my discontent and frustration, to take offense. So much so, that I followed through with what this person said to me, and filed a complaint with the organization he works for. So much so, that when he attempted to extend the olive branch of peace to me and apologize, I was still reacting with offense. I was still in this “exercising my rights” mode of “how dare he…say that to me?!”

    Thing is…his boss told me that he is not normally like that, and that he must have been having a bad day. Yeah, and I was having a bad week, but neither is an excuse for offending or taking offense, because both are a choice.

    And meanwhile, while I got all caught up in my self-righteousness…which actually surprizes me, because I haven’t been like that in a long time…and thought I had pretty much outgrown that attitude; God was still there; God was still being faithful; God was still dropping word on me to pull me out. All I had to do was receive.

    So now…I owe thanks to Him, but also to a few others. First of all…I have to thank myexodus23 for the post she had on her site about that story of faith in Africa for the hotwater bottle. It was the most simple and beautiful story of childlike faith, but it gives amazing insight to how God works by doing what Jessie Duplantis explained to me this morning…that “God speaks the future into the present.” His reference was Gen. 1. That was a serious revelation in accordance with what I had just seen on myexodus23‘s site.

    I just love that “Old Cajun Boy,” which is how Jessie Duplantis describes himself. He is great to listen to because not only does he demonstrate the joy of the Lord, but he’s just downright funny, and uses a lot of humor to explain the things of God. He was so on point today, and confirmed something that Dr. Myles Monroe has been preaching for years.

    He said that Jesus preached the Kingdom. Jesus didn’t preach himself, but He told us only that He was the doorway into the Kingdom, and that entry depends on faith in Him. Then He told and showed us how to live as Kings and Queens in the Kingdom, by ushering the Kingdom into this earth by our faith and the things we spoke into our lives.

    He said that living out the will of God on earth includes confession and that confession is vitally important because we must never lose sight of the importance of faith, which is evident and activated by our confessions. What we believe is what we speak out into the universe, so if change is what we seek, we have to speak it forth without doubt, and without speaking or agreeing to the doubt and disbelief from others.

    We can’t lose sight of the importance of faith, because faith gives you heavenly ways of thinking, talking and living. This means that you can’t live the way anyone else does or thinks. The way you live is due to the way you think and what you confess. So basically, if you want to change the way you live, you must first learn to think in heavenly ways by faith, and then by faith, confess those thoughts and conduct yourself as if it is already happening and in progress.

    He said that faith is the fabric of the garment of God! Confession is the engine of the word and is where the power of that engine comes from! This is how we become imitators of God, by our confession, because God spoke the world into existence (Gen. 1) and then…what Pastor John Hagee said the other day…God wrote down the vision. He wrote it down through the men He inspired into the book we study today, the bible. So therefore, we must write down the visions…our confessions…what we are believing in faith.

    It occurred to me that this blog is my testimonial confessions…reflecting what God already is and has shown me. But I need to have a separate journal of faith…of what I’m confessing into my future, which God will bring into my present. This journal does not need to be online, because not every thing is for everyone.

    Sometimes when you let other people know what you are confessing in faith for, or what your visions are, they speak their negative thinking into it, because they don’t want to see you surpass them, or succeed, or they don’t want you to move up because they aren’t moving up and out in faith themselves. Not that I believe this about any of my brothers or sisters here in xangaland, but this is public and worldwide, so that journal will be kept at home and private.

    At any rate, when we write down the visions and our confessions…what we are believing for in faith; this results in blessing on blessings. Blessing is different from blessings. Blessing on blessings refers to the ability (blessing) to obtain/get the increase (blessings). Jessie gave Prov 20:11 which says: Even a child is known by his actions, by whether his conduct is pure and right.

    The world wants to break our childlike faith and distort that which is good. Jessie said that the enemy doesn’t operate by faith, but by the flesh, therefore, he doesn’t know what to do, unless we tell him while/by walking in our flesh.

    What a revelation! I was so blessed by all of that, and I asked God to forgive me, and my focus has returned. I also have to go and apologize to that man for taking offense at what he said, as we were both off our game that day; and for failing to extend forgiveness when he attempted to apologize. I should have extended it before he attempted any apology. 

    What was my response when he attempted to apologize? He said, “Are we gonna be friends again?” and I said, “That depends…will your attitude be any different?” Ouch! Not pretty. My attitude was the one that needed an adjustment. Praise God for His word that pulls us out when we are in a place of darkness and just can’t see what we are really doing. I’m grateful that God is a God of mercy and second chances, and that He’s the living example of forgiveness. I thank God for restoration. Peace and blessings.

  • The Book of Isaiah Chapter 1 V.1 Part 1

    The Book of Isaiah

    Chapter 1 V.1 Part 1

     

     

     

    Isa 1:1 

    THE vision of Isaiah the son of Amoz, which he saw concerning Judah and Jerusalem in the days of Uzziah, Jotham, Ahaz, and Hezekiah, kings of Judah.

     

    The first thing I want to do here is find out who some of these folks are, because this will indicate in part, if not entirely, why God brought the vision to Isaiah in the first place. It will also help explain the positioning of the nations or peoples named in the vision and why they are so positioned. Positioning is a very important thing…because what you receive as well as when you receive is based on it…and even…if you receive at all.

     

    However, first things first.

     

    1) vision

    a) vision (in ecstatic state)

    b) vision (in night)

    c) vision, oracle, prophecy (divine communication)

    d) vision (as title of book of prophecy)

     

    Vision:

     

    (Luk 1:22), a vivid apparition, not a dream (Luk 24:23; Act 26:19; 2Cr 12:1).

     

     

    In looking up the word vision, I found several cross-references:

     

    2Ch 32:32   Now the rest of the acts of Hezekiah, and his goodness, indeed they are written in the vision of Isaiah the prophet, the son of Amoz, and in the book of the kings of Judah and Israel.

     

    2Ch 32:33   So Hezekiah rested with his fathers, and they buried him in the upper tombs of the sons of David; and all Judah and the inhabitants of Jerusalem honored him at his death. Then Manasseh his son reigned in his place.

     

    So, we’ve found both Hezekiah, and Manasseh who killed Isaiah. I’ll get back to them.

     

    However, on the subject of vision I found several things. First of all, there are several scriptures that speak of “no vision.” I can’t even imagine that. That’s really serious. Speaking as a person who gets visions…who dreams dreams, and gets oftentimes instructed through dreams…that boggles my mind.

     

    Pro 29:18  Where [there is] no vision, the people perish: but he that keepeth the law, happy [is] he.

     

    Another version says it this way:

     

    Pro 29:18   Where there is no revelation, the people cast off restraint;

    But happy is he who keeps the law.

     

    I think that section on restraint is interesting and so true.

     

    Jer. 14.14 and 23.16 speak of being aware of false prophets who speak not of God’s will but their own visions of their hearts and of deceit.

     

    Num 12:6   Then He said,

    “Hear now My words:

    If there is a prophet among you,

    I, the LORD, make Myself known to him in a vision;

    I speak to him in a dream.

    Num 12:7   Not so with My servant Moses;

    He is faithful in all My house.

    Num 12:8   I speak with him face to face,

    Even plainly, and not in dark sayings;

    And he sees the form of the LORD.

    Why then were you not afraid

    To speak against My servant Moses?”

     

     

    This kind of blows my mind because I’m remembering this:

     

    Jhn 7:19   “Did not Moses give you the law, yet none of you keeps the law? Why do you seek to kill Me?”

     

    Act 6:11   Then they secretly induced men to say, “We have heard him speak blasphemous words against Moses and God.”

    Act 6:12   And they stirred up the people, the elders, and the scribes; and they came upon him, seized him, and brought him to the council.

    Act 6:13   They also set up false witnesses who said, “This man does not cease to speak blasphemous words against this holy place and the law;

    Act 6:14   “for we have heard him say that this Jesus of Nazareth will destroy this place and change the customs which Moses delivered to us.”

     

    This was about Stephen. People are so resistant to change, even if the status quo doesn’t benefit them in any way. They cling to ideologies that they don’t live and practice, but God help you or anyone who dares to challenge them.

     

    Num 11:25   Then the LORD came down in the cloud, and spoke to him, and took of the Spirit that was upon him, and placed the same upon the seventy elders; and it happened, when the Spirit rested upon them, that they prophesied, although they never did so again.

     

    This was of interest because it demonstrates that the gifts can be passed to or shared with another.

     

    Amoz = “strong”

     

    Judah = “praised”

     

    Jerusalem = “teaching of peace”

     

    Jerusalem:

    called also Salem, Ariel, Jebus, the “city of God,” the “holy city;” by the modern Arabs el-Khuds, meaning “the holy;” once “the city of Judah” (2Ch 25:28). This name is in the original in the dual form, and means “possession of peace,” or “foundation of peace.” The dual form probably refers to the two mountains on which it was built, viz., Zion and Moriah; or, as some suppose, to the two parts of the city, the “upper” and the “lower city.” Jerusalem is a “mountain city enthroned on a mountain fastness” (Psa 68:15,16; 87:1; 125:2; 76:1,2; 122:3). It stands on the edge of one of the highest table-lands in Palestine, and is surrounded on the south-eastern, the southern, and the western sides by deep and precipitous ravines.

     

    Ariel? Moriah? I already know I’m going to find a reference later to Ariel…so at least now, I know who she is. Moriah…just wondering but for Lord of the Rings fans…doesn’t that name ring a bell?

  • The Book of Isaiah Overview

    The Book of Isaiah

    Overview

     

     

    I decided to go right to the book I really wanted to get into for the longest time. I had decided to start going through the books of the prophets, and was going to go in the order of them…starting with Joel. However…my heart is in Isaiah…so I figure I’ll be more motivated and devoted if I start with what I really desire to study first.

     

    Looking at the information about the author, I discovered that Isaiah’s name means salvation of the Lord, Jehovah has saved or God is salvation. His ministry was conducted in Judah during the reign of 4 different kings and he prophesied for about 40 years. He was called into his prophetic ministry in the year that King Uzziah (Azariah) died which was about 740 B.C.

     

    His book is sometimes referred to as the “fifth book of the gospels” because of his lofty portrayal of God and his heralding of the salvation coming through Christ. With 66 chapters, it is the longest prophetic book in the Old Testament. It’s interesting that the first section of the book parallels the Old Testament in having exactly 39 chapters, like the Old Testament has 39 books. The second section also parallels the New Testament in that it has exactly 27 chapters like the New Testament has 27 books. This similarity in association is a good way to remember the content of each section of the book of Isaiah, because they parallel the two main parts of the bible itself.

     

    The first part of the book is about the coming judgment under the dispensation we know as law. There are a lot of prophecies of judgment, but the second half is full of comfort. This book points directly to the coming of Christ and identifies how we will know Him, in that the redemptive nature of His mission is foretold.

     

    It is said that the book of Isaiah presents more insights as to the nature of God than any other book of the Old Testament. This is why it captures my attention so. This is why I have been eager to dig into it and find those nuances of God’s nature. In addition, it is the one book that points the most to the coming messiah, and no other book makes as many references to Him as Isaiah does.

     

    About the man, Isaiah:

     

    It is believed that he born of a prominent family in Jerusalem, who was related to the royal house of Judah. He spent his early years as an official of King Uzziah (Azariah) of Judah (2 Chr. 26:22). When Uzzaiah died (740 B.C.) Isaiah received his prophetic calling in a stirring vision from God. He married a woman described as “the prophetess” (Is. 8.3) {This makes me wonder who she was…} and they had two sons whom they named Shear-Jashub, “A Remnant Shall Return,” (Is. 7.3) and Maher-Shalal-Hash-Baz, “Speed the Spoil, Hasten the Booty,” (Is. 8.3) The second name is actually the first, and speaks of the coming judgment on God’s people. The first name is the comfort of the two…the hope for those who remain faithful to God. This message emphasized that although the tree of the house of David would be cut down, there would still be life in the stump.

     

    Apparently, Isaiah, like many of the prophets, met with an untimely and rather nasty demise. He, like many under popular Jewish tradition, was sawn in half during the reign of the evil king Manasseh of Judah. But he faithfully preached the message God gave him to the very end.

  • What would your New Year’s Resolution be if…

    Hi All,

    It’s that time of year again….and let me just start off by saying welcome to the people visiting me from all over the world. I was pleasantly surprised recently, in checking my footprints, to find not only visitors from various and even remote areas of Asia such as Malaysia, but recently, Turkey, and shockingly, the Russian Federation.

    So here’s the real question. What would your New Year’s Resolution be if 2008 was your last year on earth?  That puts a different spin on things doesn’t it? This was a question my pastor posed last night in his sermon.

    For me…that is something definitely needs thought, because since I don’t typically make New Year’s resolutions…it comes at me a little bit differently… not from a New Year’s perspective, but simply from a life or death one. For me, seeing as how I’m trying to live my life a day at a time with God, and have gotten out of the practise of trying to figure everything out….(mind you, I’m not saying I don’t try sometimes, but really, I’m saying that I’ve stopped trying to second guess God, and interfere inadvertently as a result) I really don’t attempt to look that far into the future. However, the prospect of only 1 year would adjust the picture somewhat.

    Right now, you haven’t seen me for a while because I have been attempting to get schooled on and set up an online business. I have been focused on this because once it is set up…its pretty much self-sufficient with the computer doing the majority of the work for me, and I’m only required to check on the system once or twice in a week, yet I will get paid.

    I’m so focused on it, not because I’m so eager to get paid for greed’s sake, but because I want my time freed up so I can do whatever God is calling me to, AND…so I can have more time to devote to my bible studies without having household/financial matters as a concern. This is not a get rich quick scheme, and certainly, I don’t even imagine getting rich from this, although I’m sure some in it do. My goal is only to support my household so I can go and do for God…so I can work for Him.

    I feel that this system I’ve been exposed to is definitely God given, because of the type of system it is…in that it can be used to advertise virtually anything I want, and Anyone I want.  I see greater potential in this system than the current use I am learning, therefore, I know that this is a door God opened.

    Thursday, I was surprised to find that someone had responded to my resume and contacted me.  I mean, its not like I was out there blazin’ a trail on the hunt for a job. I pretty much left that to God and have only been doing my required searches for the state. So I emailed this guy back late that night, stating that I needed directions to his office, but then went online and actually found it. I called Friday, since he had asked in the email if I could come in this week, and I’m thinking Friday is the last work day…I should go then. He asked to see me yesterday, so I went then.

    I actually thought it was one of the best job interviews I’ve ever had. First of all, I’m not desperate to land a job, because I’m confident that God will provide, and I feel He already has in this online system I’m working on. Therefore, my prayer before I left was…”Lord, I don’t know if this is what you want for me at this time, or if this is the job you want me in, but if it is, I believe you will get this job for me at the salary I’ve requested.” Basically, I’m pretty nonchalant about whether I land the job or not, because either way as far as I’m concerned, it will be His will, so if He doesn’t want me in this job…but to stay working from home, He will confirm it with a nonacceptance; and if He wants to move me into this position, I will get it at the salary requested. I’m happy with either decision.

    Therefore, when I went into the job, I really wasn’t nervous at all, despite the fact that the owner could not find my resume. I just told him that I was not at all surprised by that because of providence. When he said he didn’t know what this meant, I stated that I believed that if God wanted me there to be interviewed, He would get me there with or without a resume. 

    So I just answered his questions without fear…telling him why I was let go from the last job…figuring that my previous boss sensed my discontent. I mentioned the three things I felt was lacking…respect, opportunity and compensation. I told him outright (for the first time in any interview) what salary I wanted, as well as what my skills were.

    He tested those skills, and watched me work to see if I knew certain things…shortcut keys etc; he asked about the printers and if I knew printing setup; he wanted to see concepts, so he gave me about 7-9 images and told me to create a postcard for him about the caribbean. He seemed to like what I did. He checked my portfolio, and did some figuring on the salary amount I wanted, then told me he was doing a few more interviews and would let me know on Monday. It was cool.

    So I said all of that to say this…my days are one at a time, and had I not been let go from the last job, and been home like this…I might not have reached that state of ease and confidence in God. I like being in this place. I’m not sure that I want to return to a full time job, but if God opens that door, I will go, because I trust in Him and I know He has plans to prosper me…plans for my good. This is why I don’t make New Year’s Resolutions…because I’m not trying to plan my life…I want His plans for my life.

    The thing about this job that I like is the opportunity for creativity in a different direction than the last job…plus…I’ll be using photoshop to manipulate images… which I’m pretty good at, and I like doing. Actually…I’ve been doing that quite a bit lately…flexing my creative muscles in making my ads for this system I’m working on. I’ve created about 30 ads already, and I’m now learning other aspects of the system so that I can get the ball rolling.

    This has also got me thinking about redoing the site design here…the background. I love my fishes, but maybe its time for a change….so I might start working on that, because actually…I’ve gotten an idea for it.

    If I had only one year left…I would be a lot more focused on spending time with family…my son especially, and close friends, and letting them know how much I love them and how much our relationship has meant to me in my life. I would not be concerned in any way with money except for the care of my son and would want to make sure all arrangements for his care were met. I’d also make sure the burial arrangements for my body were taken care of because I wouldn’t want to burden anyone grieving with that. Outside of that…I’d do whatever God required of me within the scope of my physical ability to do so.

    Even now…I wonder what lasting legacy I can claim if I were really facing the prospect of one year left. What I mean is…could I say that my life was worthwhile? Could I say that I had lived it to its fullest extent? Would my life have demonstrated God enough? I think the answer to the last one is…privately…personally…yes, but publicly…no. In other words…do I think I’ve had an effect on anyone else for God? Personally on my friends and associates…yes, but to the public at large…not enough.

    I say that because I believe that I’m supposed to be a published author of works for the kingdom of God. That has yet to occur…so in that light, I feel that all the information and wisdom that God has shed and/or enlightened me with…has not been extended forth to the fullest extent that it should be. I’ve always felt that information and knowledge was to be shared and not hoarded, and have always been willing to share whatever I learn. But, despite what I have shared in this forum, I still feel there is much more God wants me to put out there…and I am waiting on the doors to open for that to occur. So if my life ended at the end of 2008, and this had not yet occurred, I would feel that my mission was incomplete.

    In addition, although we do not know the hour or the day…there are many things God has shown me…things He wants for me to do that I’m astounded by. Things that make me wonder because in my eyes in comparison to the visions…I am but one little ant, and we know it takes a colony. I can’t even see how that colony might be brought together, since I struggle with the idea of getting into a home fellowship group with people I do not know.

    I struggle with stepping outside of my circle of friends in a group setting and “sharing.” This is not comfortable ground for me, and it seems I’m always resistant to the idea of that for the first few weeks of any such group meeting or class in which a group like this is formed, because its usually a group of women. I’ve always had issues with groups of women…usually because they’ve had issues with me. Also…it annoys me somewhat to get into such a group and hear married women complain about their trials and tribulations, when I’m thinking…”Ok…try all that without the support and financial backing of a husband who doesn’t require you to work, and then I’m willing to hear you complain.”

    I remember the first few weeks I did our deep faith classes…and I’m sure Jay remembers the first time he met me there too. I came in to sign up draggin’. I was in whinin’ mode, complaining to God that I was only there because He wanted me there, but I really didn’t want to do it. It was in this state of self pity that I met Jay. He still laughs about it to this day. I also encountered my group of women in the same manner. I was quite unresponsive. I did not want to talk about anything or contribute any comments to the subject being discussed. (I know some of yall think that’s funny, considering how much I ramble on in here. )

    It took about 3-4 weeks in to the classes…once I discovered that I had some misconceptions about some women in the group…and finding that I had some similarities with them…that I opened up and got involved. And you know, honestly, I don’t know why I react this way to (particularly) women’s groups. I guess the suspicion comes from the fact that I was oftentimes the subject of malicious attacks from women, particularly in the workplace. Since I was a child…I was always dealing with jealous, spiteful females, and therefore, have always been much more comfortable in the company of men.

    But I’ve noticed that even the idea of mixed company in the home fellowship groups is a turn off to me if I don’t know anyone from prior acquaintance. The idea of going to someone’s home that I don’t know…it just doesn’t work for me. And it’s really not a matter of not wanting to be connected. I’ve always felt like a wallflower at any social outing where I didn’t know anyone. I’m not like my friend Gail, who walks up to and starts conversations with anyone about God…saved or not. I’m totally in awe of her, but that’s just not my approach.

    In addition…time is a factor, and I think I would feel obligated…once I attended a particular group. What if I don’t like the group or what’s being studied? I’m not really sure how that is handled if I decide I’d like to try a different group or subject. Funny thing is…I signed up to co-lead a group, and I have all these issues with groups. Seriously…I’m ok with being a bit reclusive…is it really obvious?

    I have a feeling this is one of those things God is going to try to break me out of…maybe in this year. And then…how can I say that if 2008 is my last year on earth…and that I don’t feel I’ve had enough of a public effect, if I’m so reluctant to reach out to people? Its a sad state of affairs, I know. And I think this is something God is trying to work out in me…seeing as how all this has come to my attention in the last few days. I’d like to believe that if this was my last year, I could say that I’ve run my race…and fulfilled His purpose for my life, but honestly…I don’t think that has happened yet, and I’m bothered by the fact that I don’t think I’m even close. What are your thoughts on this subject and your life in this equation? Peace and blessings.

     

     

  • Happy New Year

    Hey All,

    Just poppin in to wish everyone a fabulous start and new year. I will be back later to post. Right now…my dsl package just came from ups, so I will be busy hookin’ that up, and getting a few other things initiated that I’ve been waiting to do in the beginning of this year. But I will posting as soon as possible. Peace and blessings.