Month: October 2007

  • Tests & Trials?

    Tests & Trials?

    This past weekend, my son and I went on a scouts camping trip. The location wasn’t that far from home…a big park a few cities south of us in our same county, but further west. I had no reason to believe that this trip would be anything unlike the other trips I’ve been on, which were all good.

    However, on the way heading west, a strange event occurred. I was on my way to my mother’s which was on the way west and from which I could easily get to the park. While driving and eating the chinese food we picked up, I began to experience a strange flush. It was like the kind of pins and needles sensation that you feel when your foot has fallen asleep and you try to walk on it. The difference was…the pins and needles were fiery hot like a million little hot pokers.

    It started at the crown of my head and spread to my face, neck, shoulders, and just headed down through my entire body. All of a sudden, I felt like my insides were burning up, but my skin felt cool. Of course, the first thing I thought about was all the hospital based dramas, like House, and Grey’s anatomy. I remembered one such show…I think it was on House, where they said a patient’s blood was heating up. This is what I felt was happening to me because it was creeping through every limb in my body. Eventually, my face began to look a bit red to me…flushed; and that’s not easy to see considering my good, natural tan.

    I called my mother who tried to calm me down, and told me to drink whatever water I had available. When I got to her house, she took my blood pressure, which turned out to be normal, and gave me some chewable aspirin, and I chilled for awhile until it began to go away.

    Afterwards, we left and went to the park. Our setting up of the tent was an unusually calm event, as my son usually gets frustrated and ends up frustrating me with his failure to listen and follow instructions. But this time, it went very well. A preview of what was to come?

    So Friday night, it was drizzling all night. The tent was all set up; we turned in relatively early, did our reading, and went to sleep. At about 1am, I wake up after being half asleep listening to the rain on the tent, and I check on my son, and he wakes up and says he feels wet. Come to find out…rain is coming through the back of the tent.

    So we get up; I move the mattress; put down some towels and another comforter so my son is no longer feeling wet, and we attempt to return to peaceful slumber. But no sooner than we start getting comfortable, then we discover that the airmattress is deflating. I shake my head and chuckle, saying…”Ok…let’s go get in the car.” So my son and I go to the car, thinking that we can lay back in the seats and sleep. We were wide awake by that time, plus it was humid out, as it had stopped raining. So we take the Narnia book, and I turn on the car and the ac and the overhead light, and we start reading. Shortly thereafter, I turn off the ac and the car, and just leave the light on. We read one chapter…just one chapter, and the next thing I know, the overhead light dims. “Uhoh,” I say, “I’d better turn this off.” So I turn off the overhead light, and try to start the car. No go. Battery is dead. Great.

    We sit there. I lay back in the seat, and lil man does too. The security guard comes along, and I let lil man go on the rounds with him, since he still can’t get back to sleep. I doze.  They return, and lil man asks to go sit with his friend Zach in the campfire circle, as Zach and his brother are there because they can’t sleep either. I tell him only if he uses his library voice and doesn’t disturb anyone.

    He returns at 4am saying he’s done, and is ready to sleep. Meanwhile, I find out later that one of the camp leaders had to get up and tell them to be quiet because they got too loud. So we doze off, and 6am rolls around. I had volunteered to help with breakfast at 6:30. My son says he sees someone there, but I say I will go in a bit and drift off again. I’m late of course. I woke at 7 and barely got myself over there.

    After the breakfast festivities were done, I go to see if the car will start. After getting one of the pastors to jump it, I let it run and check all the fluids, fill the battery with water, and pump up the tires which were at half the inflation they should have been at.

    After the car is going good, I drive around to where my tent is, and attempt to hook up the pump to blow up the mattress. Just as I had blown it up, and was putting away the pump; I turn to grab the mattress and keep it from blowing off the car, and find that it has deflated again. I repeat the process just to be sure, and realize that the mattress, which is brand new…is no good. Now I’ve got to take it back to Kmart, where my friend who gave it to me, bought it. I’m just shaking my head, and chuckling at all of this, like…”What’s up with this, God?”

    So my son spends an hour running around trying to find a parent he knows that will agree to take him to the water park, where most of the campers are going. He gets his hookup, and I leave with a bag full of stuff to shower with, as I’m determined to get into the bath house in the adjacent camper section of the park, by hook or by crook. I’m not staying 2.5 days in the park without a shower.

    I head to the store which is east of the park, and upon getting there, I’m told by the service desk clerk that because I don’t have the receipt, I have to find the exact same product, price and style or they will not exchange it. Of course, I had a full size, and they had a queen and two twin size mattresses. I speak to the manager about getting the two twins, which are on sale, and paying the difference…she says “no go.” Kmart now refuses to give store credit on their own defective products if you don’t have the receipt, so even if it is a gift, they will not take it back unless you find the exact same product to exchange. So I had to have the girl call the next store which was twice the distance away in the next town…and go there to get it.

    On the way, I stop at a Dollar General to get something, and stop in a Jamaican restaurant next to it that I know. I order a red bean soup. While I’m standing there, I say to the owner (an older female), “There’s no pepper in this soup is there?” She says no. I tell her that I don’t want any dumplings in the soup. She says she wrote a note to the cook and told him.

    So I pay for the soup and go to the other Kmart. After picking up the mattress, I’m headed back west towards the campground. I open the soup and hit a bump, spilling it on myself, but I don’t care because I’m still in my grubby clothes and haven’t showered yet.

    I’m looking at the soup, and it’s sort of a greenish color, which is strange, considering I ordered RED bean soup. So I taste it. It’s full of pepper. I had told the woman I didn’t want it if it was peppery. I scoup down into the soup and pull up a spoon full of tripe. I’m like…”What’s this?” I scoop again….there’s dumplings! And…not a red bean to be found? So now I’m talking to God again. “Ok, Lord…this is a joke right? Cause if this is her red bean soup….I’ll never go to this restaurant again.” Turns out, after a bit of discussion about the contents above, that she gave me the wrong soup. I get my soup and head back to camp.

    The rest of the night was uneventful, but the following morning when we broke camp, I stopped at my BF’s house, as she lives in that city. After talking to her sleepy self in her robe at the door, we determine that she’s too tired to do breakfast, and I turn to leave. My son was sitting in the car the entire time, playing the radio, and with the ac running. I get to the car and start fussing at him about the volume, and about the fact that he had the radio on, when I had already told him not to do this, considering that the battery had died two nights before. Sure enough…the car won’t start…and my BF’s already gone back to bed. I did not want to wake her whole household, so I told him that he’d better pray that there was enough juice in my recharger to jump that car or he was in serious trouble. It did. Praise God. So we got home with no other events, and rested. Hope your weekend was blessed. Peace.

  • Updates, Changes & Corrections

    Updates, Changes & Corrections

    Hi all. I know I’ve been outta sight for a while, so I felt a need to update you all on what’s been going on. In addition, I have to address an error I made in the course of the two studies I’ve been doing.

    Corrections

    In the Beginning Pt. 9

    First, the error. When I read Gary’s study on Ish, I was quite fascinated…so much so that my mind ran with the ideas being given to me as I looked back at Genesis. The ideas were so exciting to me, because God was, through these ideas, unblocking some self-esteem issues I had that was holding me back. So on that account, it was a good thing, and hopefully blessed someone else in the same way.

    However, seeing as how I am working towards becoming a published writer in some major magazines and publications, I felt that I needed to go back and look at that word  “man” in the beginning to see where Gary first found Ish at and to make sure that my impression on who Ish was, was indeed correct. I realized that much of what I saw was based on the information in the first two chapters of Genesis, but not specifically on that word man, which is what Gary had focused his attention to. So I thought I needed to also focus on that word to ensure the clarity of what I was stating, and in doing so, I found something else.

    Now, to be clear, the duality or separation of the clay man/shell and spirit man of Adam is correct. There is a separation of the two, and they were indeed created at two distinctively different times/days in the creation process. However, the reference I found for Ish first appeared with Ishshah, and in that context, it was a reference to the “woman” as “wife.”

    When Eve was first created, she was not referred to as “Eve” but as “the woman” which is where we first see Ishshah. I did not see Ish prior to this, but it is possible that I missed it, although I checked every reference to man in the first two chapters. I found Ishshah referenced first, and then Ish at the point in which they were being tempted.

    Thus, this put a whole new spin on the perspective in which we were examining this, because I believe that when Gary found Ish, he found him in chapter 3, as I believe his focus was the temptation in the garden, but I found Ishshah in chapter 2, because I went all the way back to the beginning to find this separation of clay and spirit that I was shown. In the process, I found a pattern or methodology that God operates in. Upon checking on this finding of Ishshah in the concordance, I found the reference to “wife” and then with Ish the reference to “husband.”

    So that showed me that the clay form is nameless, but is a part of the overall being of Adam. Satan came and tempted them via the marriage bond, because his intention was not only to cause them to fall from grace, but to sever their bond…to put an enmity between man and woman. He has been successful in doing this, as evidence within the church points out in their subjegation of women in the body as a result of the fall.

    Changes & Updates

    In other news, I became unemployed as of 9/25/07, so I have been busy handling the various agency information requests to ensure that my son is provided for, as well as searching for a job. However, I have come to the conclusion, that every person I know of that is seriously serving the Lord in a ministry, is self-employed in some way and self-sufficient in God, so their time is free and flexible to serve Him. Since I want to serve Him, I am walking in faith on this issue as well, and working towards being self-employed.

    I’ve been asking the Lord if this state of unemployment is the answer to the requests I have been putting in about being freed up to serve Him, and I am of the opinion that it is. This is just something that I have to walk in faith on, so I am.

    So I’ve been pretty busy…in fact, it amazes me to think and wonder how some people sit around their homes with nothing to do, because I have so much to do, that I wondered how I had time for a 9-5 before.

    God is still blessing, despite the well-intentioned discouragement I received from a sister in the benevolence dept. It was a little seed in something she said to me, and then right after that, she commented, “But you are confident in God, right?” It facsinates me how much christians can be the worst source of discouragement we can have sometimes.

    I had to even say something to my mother about the spirit of skepticism that she constantly shows me. I was explaining to her that my son (11yrs) has just moved into the “noticing girls” phase, and how I was addressing it. Immediately, she started berating me with all of this skepticism because she doesn’t believe in one of my gifts from God, and she didn’t feel I should expose my son to this gift. I had to just shut her down on that conversation really fast, because frankly, I’m tired of nega-speak. (My term)

    Speaking of perceptions, I got offered several opportunities. I am currently working on two of them, and as soon as I can get websites up and running, I will let you know. However, one of the people I am interacting with, gave me a DVD of The Secret. At first, I was slightly skeptical, as in the beginning of the DVD, they do a lot of what I call “unnecessary prep,” which is a bunch of talk about how this is something that persons XY & Z  have known for centuries…etc; and that it is something everyone should know. I can’t stand when people waste my time on constant baiting about how much I and everyone needs something they are pushing. Just get to the point.

    At any rate, when they finally got to the point, it was so simplistic…in fact, God had revealed this to me before in a different way. It is a biblical principle they present without a lot of focus on God, because I think they are trying to appeal to a wider audience. It’s basically a faith principle, but the thing I liked about this presentation, is that they actually explained how to operate in it, and answered some of the typical questions that we all tend to have that create doubt and inhibit us from receiving. For instance…my biggest issue of late, and something I have been talking to God about is time. In the DVD…they explained the “time delay” and the reason for it, and so it made a lot of sense, and calmed my nerves and resolved my issues about time. So I think that it is a good presentation, and they did mention that the principles they were espousing were biblical and God based.

    At any rate…this is what is going on with me at the moment. I will update again when time permits, and will try to get back to posting my studies asap. Thanks for still visiting even while I was gone, and for checking up on me. Peace and blessings.

     

  • The Next Cycle of 40 Part 10 Section 4

    The Next Cycle of 40

    Part 10 Section 4

     

    Fred Price said that too many Christians today are unaware of the battleground. Because of that, they are destroyed due to this lack of awareness. That’s where my focus starts…at the beginning of the lack of awareness. Now, this is where Gary’s study on this subject started. It goes on for several posts which, if you understand it, are quite fascinating.

     

    When the serpent spoke to Eve in the garden, he spoke to Iyshshah…her earth man…her clay body. Then she in turn spoke to Iysh, Adam’s clay body in giving him the fruit. The serpent spoke to the clay because he knew the clay. He marred the clay. This is how he gets us outside of the will of God. He speaks not to the spirit man, but to the clay, because that is the body of his influence…that is the substance with properties he can magnetically affect.

    But God…provided plenty for our Adam (spirit man) and Adamah (spirit of Eve) to feed upon. Herbs bearing seed…trees yielding fruit yielding seed. He set a pattern for us to follow in the very beginning. Feed on this…food that processes (photosynthesizes), yields and responds to light.

     

    I could write alot on this subject, and actually I have, but for my purposes here…that tidbit will suffice. I wanted you to see the word Iysh. Gary broke the meaning down clearly in the post where his study starts. I wanted you to see this word Iysh, because this is the Hebrew word for man in only one instance in Genesis in reference to Adam. Gary described this word as meaning a mortal being, weak, desperate (perhaps even halt or handicapped in some stand-out way) and quite different from the other man known as Adam. The other man is the spirit man…the created one.

     

    There is a distinct difference between something that is created and something that is formed. One requires a great deal more thought and planning than the other.  How does this man Iysh relate to this part of my study?

    I looked up Ishbosheth and this is how the word breaks down:

     

    Ishbosheth  ‘Iysh-Bosheth

    “a man of shame”

    Root word H376: ‘iysh

    ) man

    a) man, male (in contrast to woman, female)

    b) husband

    c) human being, person (in contrast to God)

    d) servant

    e) mankind

    f) champion

    g) great man

    2) whosoever

    3) each (adjective)

     

    and H1322 bosheth

    1) shame

    a) shame

    b) shameful thing

     

    God set a man that walked in and only knew of his clay self…and was magnetically drawn to the things of this world…the things that bring shame; over His people. The parallel is this. God allowed a “man of shame” to temporarily rule. All the while the Spirit was there, as this man turned 40, the number of the Spirit, prior to his rule beginning. So this temporary rule by the man of shame was a holy endeavor and had God’s purposes behind it. He ruled a short time, only two years, and then he was overthrown…correction…eliminated. Likewise, Satan’s time is limited. His influence is shortlived. Why? Because what he offers cannot satisfy as it is temporal and caters to the temporal clay we exist in. We are programmed to seek something more fulfilling. This is why any time you see a man of shame in a position of power or authority…you can rest assured that it is temporal.

  • The Next Cycle of 40 Part 10 Section 3

    The Next Cycle of 40

    Part 10 Section 3

     

    2Sa 2:8 ¶ But Abner the son of Ner, captain of Saul’s host, took Ishbosheth the son of Saul, and brought him over to Mahanaim;

     

    Mahanaim = “two camps”

    1) a place east of the Jordan, named from Jacob’s encounter with angels

    2) a Levitical city in Gad

     

    God refocused me on this word Mahanaim because it seems to indicate indecision, or doubt…like the state of mind of Israel at the time was a split decision, or they were “between a rock and a hard place,” or “neither hot nor cold.” Since Brett has been talking alot about doubt, this caught my attention here as well.

     

    2Sa 2:10  Ishbosheth Saul’s son [was] forty years old when he began to reign over Israel, and reigned two years. But the house of Judah followed David.

     

    Ishbosheth = “man of shame”

    1)    surviving son of Saul, king of Israel for 7 years while David was king over Judah; succeeded by David who united the kingdom

     

    Point number one, is that the fact that the Spirit was again present before this reign of the “man of shame” occurred. That is significant, because it demonstrates that God had a purpose even in this. He had a purpose in allowing a split decision or allowing two options…a choice.

     

    So the very fact that any of us have doubt is actually correct, because it means that we see that there are options, and we are aware of our own lack of ability or limitations. The thing is, not to dwell in doubt or our lack of abilities, but to see and seek the Father for His will and His way, because that will dispel all doubt, and we will know the correct path. That will enable our abilities via the spirit man within, infusing them with God’s power, and purpose. Again…God has a purpose in every thing.

     

    Now, at this point, I have to break this down much further, because God, via my friend Gary, has enlightened me, and what Gary has shown me…God has just blown up on so many levels.

     

    So I have to give you just a taste of it here, because the whole revelation is still ongoing and lengthy, and that’s a whole ‘nother study, but you need a perception of Ishbosheth and the definition of who he was. To do that…I have to take you back to the beginning. I also have to take you into Gary’s site for a full breakdown of what I hope will be a brief glimspe or summarization here. So at this point, I suggest you check out this as it will help you to see where I’m coming from further on in this section of my study.